It was quite bad yesterday before the benzo and phenibut kicked in. I then started to feel tired, took an extra stim to focus and try to read and then fell asleep.

But it was a good day at work today.. I was busy doing things non-stop 9am-1pm. I walked into town to deposit the check and then picked up wellbutrin - So I'll take that in the morning. I can't believe I was going to take gabapentin every day cuz I would have been spaced out badly. At least with wellbutrin, it's a mild stimulant so I can focus better. Maybe it will give me more motivation.

Only thing is I don't want my thoughts to disconnect with taking the invega shot less frequently. But I'll see with time.

I'm OK with the world ending and not knowing the details. I'll just live in the microcosm of my life, go skiing, hiking, being with family etc until a nuke drops on me or what ever. I intensely look at corruption news but it's all nonsense. How can I fix.. If I am to read certain books and not get overwhelmed, it's all I can do. I can't change the world with fear or anger etc.

Just self-reflection, to chill.. I will be schismed from reality when it is time.