I found my termination with my long-time T to be quite a difficult process. I’d hoped for something more… lovely. Like I don’t know what I was expecting at the end. But just more. More warmth, more of her, more care.

But it was okay and I got through it and I’m really grateful to her for the time we spent together… and also for letting me go. In retrospect I was spinning my wheels a little, trying way too hard and only getting dug in further. It’s helpful to be out of that situation and I grew a lot both from the relationship itself and from letting go of it.