Good morning! I hope everyone is doing really well today. Happy Saturday! It sounds silly, but I do like saying that to myself at least once a day when something good happens or I feel good. It’s just a reminder we don’t have to have special days or holidays to celebrate the good. So, again, Happy Saturday to everyone!

I’m feeling good today. I did something a little impulsive yesterday but it’s really a great step in the right direction. I applied for a job. It’s at the local university as a tutor coordinator and coach for at risk students. I have all the requirements and a background in education as a teacher. I really do think I have a lot of assets to bring to the job if I were to get it. However, here is the thing – I’m not banking on getting this job. Hell, I’m not even worried about getting an interview… but it was a first step into re-acclimating myself to the world. It’s practice for the real thing. There are some obstacles that could stand in my way from my past that I have to learn to tackle and nothing beats field practice. That’s what I’m working on here. Being stagnant generates no change. I’m proud of myself for applying. I am at least working towards a goal – it’s forward motion, after all. I told my therapist about it and she is really on board with my decision to do it, and my attitude towards it. I’m prepared for a rejection, for any reason including my past. It won’t stop me attempting though. I’m still really uncomfortable expressing the situation even with strangers, but it’s something I have to learn to talk about in neutral terms and less emotionally charged. I may divulge it at a later time to you all, but it is a source of shame and I’d rather not. Just note it’s not something recent nor something that should deter me from a job, just cause a red flag perhaps.

Other than that, my day is going as planned which is – no plan! I will try to spend a little more time on the forum being helpful if I can, and just interacting. It’s also good practice to be social for me. I appreciate all of you who read my posts and while I don’t comment a lot, I do read the check in forum specifically every day to catch up on everyone. I’ll be more proactive in that from now on.

Again, I’m just in a good mood and I have a positive outlook these days. Happy Saturday!