Lonely tears,

welcome!

Believe me, you'll find this place to be full of warm, kindhearted people who've been through the mill themselves. . .

Perhaps you could add further to ". . .why am i like a mistake to everyone . . ."

It's hard to comment unless I know a little more. Remember, you can open yourself up here. Do so if you can.
We're on your side, and here to help along the way. I don't want you "to fall apart".
Look after yourself. (john4)