Don't really know what to say. Feeling bad. What's new. I think the reason I keep wanting to text you about how bad I feel is just to have it acknowledged. Or maybe I'm unintentionally trying to make you feel as helpless as I do. Projective identification or whatever.

Whatever the reason, it all feels so pointless.

Dr. S, are you aware of how withdrawal from Adderall can affect mood? Because I'm feeling like absolute ****. The Wellbutrin is in no way making up for reducing the Adderall. And I'm not hopeful that the withdrawal symptoms will improve anytime soon. I've been on Adderall half my life, including a chunk of time when my brain was still developing. My body is going to be very sluggish in adjusting if it adjusts at all.

And I don't know how much more of this I can tolerate. I can take the physical symptoms but the emotional ones are taking such a big toll, especially since I was already depressed. I don't think I should accept having thoughts about hurting myself as a result of treatment. Even though I don't feel like I'm actually in danger, these thoughts and desires are very upsetting to me and compound my anxiety.