Hey Cool, I am hoping things are going better. I am in a similar place to yours about phone calls being very anxiety producing. Calls to utilities and service providers especially bother me. I also hate talking on the phone to friends/family as it creates a ton of anxiety. Now… the kicker? I currently work basically at a call center! I really like my job… from 7pm to 3am I am calling making sure everything is OK with shipments. Most of the people I call find the calls a bother at best and some get outright nasty. And… I am one of the better ones at de escalation! Go figure. But… the calls at work have absolutely nothing to do with me.
I think the important take away is that anxiety doesn’t have to make sense… it is just there, another hassle we have to deal with on our way to wholeness.