I am doing very well today for once. I took my 80 mil geodon in the morning like I am supposed to. I did not take it last night. I took it at 4 and then I fell back asleep from 5:58 until 7:16. I felt very rested and I did not have any anxiety. I am seeing legit progress with my weight loss and its making me really happy and boosting my self esteem. I started watching the current season of Celeberity Big Brother since I know a few of the people on the show. Then around 9 I actually made it to the grocery store and got shopping done without getting the heebie jeebies. I found the new soda I've been looking for. I took the only 2 they had. I saw some lady gaze at my cart in another part of the store then head towards the part of the store where the soda was. Then we met up again and I could feel her eyes on me. The cashier also commented on the soda and never seeing it before.

I've taken half of a valium since I only have 4 left. The half is working good right now. I am hoping to have an actual refill in hand by late tommorow afternoon. I did finally buy a morning, noon, and night pill organizer which is coming on Tuesday. My sister and her family are coming over in a bit for our birthdays but I guess it won't be as big a deal as my mom and I thought it would be. But thats ok. My new melatonin came so hopefully that helps and doesn't cause any side effects. Although I took my normal dose of the old stuff last night and it was not too bad after about half an hour, and I did not wake up feeling sick. But I may not have woken up feeling sick because I did not take the full 160 dose of Geodon.