I was almost in a full blown panic attack while out grocery shopping this morning. I knew what I needed so I just hurried. I didn't feel unsafe I just am very anxious being on a low dose of valium right now. Plus my face masks do look goofy but they are super protective. But anyways my doctor did call in my valium. Now I just have to hope the pharmacy fills it 3 days early. I have one left. I took half of one early this morning and an ativan about half an hour ago and I feel like I'm about to crawl out of my skin right now. Or pass out. I just ate a bowl of veggie pasta so I shouldnt be hungry. I've just been very lightheaded all day. When my pill organizer comes I plan on filling it and keeping that in my room and givng my giant basket of meds to my mom to keep. My old therapist told me I should get a time lock one but they are like $70.

Edit: I took half of my last valium and I am super lethargic but not very anxious anymore. the other half left and the ativan. I still have not heard back from the pharamacy. Oh yeah I forgot to take my topamax this morning. My hunger has sucked so badly in general I keep forgetting to take it in the morning and then I have to double up at night

By the way, there are moles on this site and if this part of my post gets deleted then that just proves it.

I feel like a super lethargic nauseated mess right now. I don't know if its the mixing benzos, the lack of valium, not eating enough, or being up since midnight. But I feel so sick and tired right now. I emailed my therapist and I asked her if I could see her tommrow instead of wednesday but I haven't heard back.