My depression and anxiety were intense today. I cried twice. It's things that are not such a big deal and wouldn't bother me if i was in good health. I'm just finding them overwhelming because i'm so sick. It's some extra care i have to do for my dog, routine care (nail trim, shots, grooming). I just find appointments are so unpleasant because i get such bad anticipatory anxiety and for my dog especially because i don't have a car and transportation is an obstacle and because it's unpleasant procedures for my dog and i hate to see her suffer.

Anyways, 43 hours and 14 minutes until her first appointment on Wednesday at 4:00pm.