I talked to my therapist and my pdoc today. Both expressed support with the whole breast cancer scare. My pdoc increased my bedtime gabapentin and also increased my AD dose as well as just listening and reading my reports and giving me feedback. My therapist listened and sent me a picture of his son's new labradoodle which made me smile. I'm still depressed and anxious (my pdoc said my anxiety score went up 50% in 5 weeks) but that's not surprising. For now I'm tired and hopefully will get to sleep earlier than usual tonight and sleep through the night. Then I just have to get through this week and next Tuesday is my surgeon appointment.