ohhhhhhh sweetie.... yes.. I long for "a mom" I will put it that way...
I say "a mom" because my mom wasn't a "proper mom" either...

I am so sorry you are in pain and not feeling well...

That is when the longing gets the worse..you just want that "mom person" in your life.. that takes care of you and nutures you... and that is what your mom.. and my mom was suppose to do.. only they didn't...

And calling her..(from my own experience) will probably make you feel worse.. because she won't give you what you are needing...

(((((hugs)))).... (((hugs))).... ((((hugs))))

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This probably is not the time... so forgive me... it is way to early to suggest... with you feeling so owie.. so just... ignore this and come back to it later.. ok???

This body work T... has been working with me on "self nuture" - because.. if I can "self nuture" - I don't have to depend.. or call on anyone else... so I can get my needs met...
so.. for me.. and I say me.. it is laying on my side.. with something to hold onto - a pillow... soft.. and fresh smelling... and empting my mind.... and.. just "letting it be"....the "back of my mind continues to process but my "infront" mind relaxes and releases the "owies".. and.. I found it works..... takes practice.. and motevation... to even try.. but worth the effort... for getting my needs met..

(((((more hugs))))