What kind of depression is it where you can't tolerate your regular activities?
Everything seems unpleasant. Like i used to follow these four soap operas and enjoy how caring and kind and supportive the people were of each other. How they used to listen to each others feelings so intently and compassionately. The absurd story lines used to amuse me too. But now i can't bear them, they seem so inane and worthless nonsense. The commercials are so irritating too. I never did watch them. I put on mute and closed my eyes but i catch the first few seconds and even that is just intolerable.
And Scrabble, which i've played competitively for twenty years, seems like a tedious stupid game, don't know what i ever saw in it.
Music seems to be all about romantic love and sex and dancing and staying up all night. Like i *want* to hear about that. It's so repellent.
Radio used to keep me company but there's the problem of commercials there too.
I spend a lot of time lying around or sitting quietly, just because i can't tolerate anything. I'm not suicidal so anti-depressants won't help. But then i feel a mild uncomfortable persistent boredom which is just slightly better than suffering how inane and noisy and annoying my activities are.
There's a fancy ten-dollar word "anhedonia" which means inability to experience pleasure.
Is THAT what this is? Has anyone else had this? Did anything help?
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