Still really depressed and i have been crying a lot. It's like everywhere I look or go I am reminded of my deceased wife. We were married 23 years and she was only 44 when she passed away last November. I feel so alone and lost and I let my health go downhill I have lost a little over 60 pounds since her death. The good thing is I have not smoked a cig since dec 18th and I have not smoked weed for about a month