Thanks for chiming in @Pinny (and welcome!) and @BethRags. I'm not just being stubborn about anti-depressants. I've tried about six of them for mild depression and they don't help. Prozac, Manerix, Parnate, Effexor, Celexa, Wellbutrin. I only find they work for me when i'm ready to go off the deep end. And even then, they throw me into a mania which has all sorts of disadvantages too, mostly financial, with foolish shopping. Argh, all the crap i bought this Spring and Summer and here in Canada we are close to settling our yearly personal accounts at income tax time in March and the full weight of all the foolhardy spending is hitting me like a thunderclap. I didn't even make my minimum savings target this year, only saved about half of what i did last year. And the junk i bought, stuff i don't need and don't want! So i'm very clear that anti-depressants are only to be used sparingly, for me, when the situation warrants it, which it doesn't at the moment, only when being broke is better than being dead.

I *did* email my doctor asking if there's any other help he can give me.

I did a trial of vitamin D but found it ruined my ability to doze the day away without improving my mood and being more awake to feel mildly depressed and mild anxiety is no solution.

The ironic and silly thing is that i am enjoying writing about how i can't enjoy anything! It feels good to express myself and be heard. Thanks for your support!