I haven’t Been on and I apologize for that, I know many are struggling with terrible things and I’m so sorry for everyone. Know I am sending positive vibes to each and every one of you.

I don’t have much to say. I can’t update my mood as at this time I cannot separate what may be purely hormonal vs what I’ve been feeling for months. I will say I feel better in general. I had terrible anxiety yesterday and today but I really don’t know why and again, attribute it to hormones.

My cats are driving me crazy, I’m afraid either one might be gone by the morning. Cheeto is doing much better but he’s vocalizing a lot more than he used to which concerns me, and he’s chasing the other one all over the damn house at night and she’s limping terribly now, along with wheezing and coughing. I was told she’ll need knee surgery but I can’t afford that. I have to pay for my own medical costs and my son’s summer camp, and this summer I have to start the process of getting his teeth in order. He needs extensive orthodontic work, and not just for looks. The way his teeth are every which way if he doesn’t get them fixed he will run into a lot of jaw and other problems later in life.

So I can’t fix the cat. I am going to call about the asthma though and see if I can’t get her on a nebulizer or at least some sort of rescue medication so I don’t have to watch her go through a terrible asthma attack again. Gosh, that was just AWFUL.

I was really very anxious driving home today, like specifically about the driving, which usually only happens in bad weather to me. But it was actually a decent day temperature wise so I went straight home and walked to pick up my son instead of stopping by in the car. It was a nice 20 minute round trip and I got to chat with him for longer before he disappeared upstairs.