Anxiety is way up today. For a change not about my health, but about the future. I have one big chore I need to get accomplished SOON, or I'll be on the verge of pretty serious trouble. I'm trying to calm myself by acknowledging that I do not need to get it done today or even within a week, but the sooner the better. I don't know why I'm not getting it done. I heard Kristen Bell describe her anxiety as "like decision fatigue." That's what it feels like. I would much rather do NOTHING, than to get this stuff done, no matter how little actual work it might be. This is the year I need to get my life moving in a better direction (or any direction). The stress of it is very overwhelming. And god or the universe or whatever isn't doing me a solid, by letting me die in my sleep. I just keep waking up and everything seems to compound when I do. F! Get me out of here!