Hey BethRags, I agree that you communicate very effectively and I'm happy you feel so supported. I think I get what you're saying about that not leaving much room for therapy. I communicate more effectively in writing especially if the person irl is obviously very rushed (I would think that is somewhat ''normal''....) Is there any ''deeper'' stuff you could talk to the T about that you haven't posted here? idk I'm just speculating (I haven't been around very much for a while and I miss a lot of posts). I'm not sure how long you've been talking to this T for?
It took me a very long time to start to trust T1... so long that I believe/speculate he had already ''got bored''... I strongly speculate he was a Narcissist... I have spoken in depth to a couple of close friends about this and they agree with me. It's sad when someone ''unsuitable'' gets into that field and does not ''control'' their disorder enough to ALWAYS be a ''healer'' or at least to DO NO HARM. It's beyond obvious, to me, that if a therapist is bored, triggered, ''indifferent'' or something similar by some of their clients they Should refer the client to another T. Unless they can work on THEIR stuff without spilling it out on the client in destructive and cruel ways
I must have been very naive.
My parental units wanted to keep me ''naive'' (as a child and even an adolescent) so they could Control me... until it suited them to throw me out.
I'm glad the crappy admin wasn't just crappy to you!
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Originally Posted by BethRags
Ugh. Therapy appointment today and I have absolutely nothing to talk about. Honestly, I communicate here so effectively, and feel so supported, it doesn't leave much for therapy. But I've cancelled the past 2 sessions, so I'd feel rotten to cancel again today. Frustrating, though...feels like I'm just wasting my time.
On the feline diabetes support group, one admin ended up apologizing for the other admin who snapped at me. Hmm...maybe the crabby admin is known to be a problem in the group, behind the scenes.
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Well, I just cancelled my therapy appointment. On very short notice, for which I feel really bad. But. I so dislike wasting time, and a one hour therapy appointment really ends up being a 4 hour commitment. I will go next week, though, because I have an appt. for blood labs right after the therapy appt.
Ahh...I feel like my day has been freed up. I have work to do with the book business and I need to go to the grocery store. AND their bakery is rumoured to have a new, fresh shipment of macarons in today....haha.
Today will be disgustingly warm, as will the entire week-end until Monday, when hopefully the temperature will drop. I'll be wearing shorts today! Nutty.
I took the first Doxepin last night and my sleep was much better. Quite good, in fact. I don't feel any hangover, either.
First world problem...I have a regular hair stylist, I've been seeing her for 6 years. I adore her, she's like a good friend. However, for my last 3 out of 4 appointments she screwed up her time and either double-booked or mixed up my appointment. The third time I was really irritated and decided to see a new stylist. The new stylist cut my hair well enough, but she was a rather abrasive person. Okay, but I wasn't wild about her. However, I planned to return to her, since my usual stylist seems so scattered. I figured that was that.
So yesterday morning who calls but my long-time stylist, wondering how I was doing and letting me know she has ordered a new type of deep conditioner for thick, wavy hair. She wants to try it out on me at no charge to see how it works.
Yikes. How awkward. She'd certainly know that I had had a haircut since last seeing her. So I weighed the options and ended up making an appointment with her for mid-March, for a trim. I told her that I'd like to do the deep conditioning then, and that she is certainly welcome to charge me for it. I figure by mid-March she won't notice that my hair has been cut.
Silly stuff, but part of life. The last thing I want to do is hurt my usual stylist's feelings. We have such a good connection.
So there's my update for this morning!
Love all around <3
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