Hey BethRags, I agree that you communicate very effectively and I'm happy you feel so supported. I think I get what you're saying about that not leaving much room for therapy. I communicate more effectively in writing especially if the person irl is obviously very rushed (I would think that is somewhat ''normal''....) Is there any ''deeper'' stuff you could talk to the T about that you haven't posted here? idk I'm just speculating (I haven't been around very much for a while and I miss a lot of posts). I'm not sure how long you've been talking to this T for?

Thank you, Fuzzy. I should have said that I feel at ease with posting here.

I've been with my therapist for about 2 1/2 years. She's a tremendously kind woman and I adore her. But her huge focus is on CBT. CBT is mildly helpful for me, but it has vast limitations for me.

I have worked with some "deeper" issues with her, but didn't find her too great with handling them. She just defaults to CBT skills. And, I'm not even sure I want to work with deeper things anymore. I'm just so tired of therapy at this point. And I'm sooo lucky because meds are keeping me stable.

It took me a very long time to start to trust T1... so long that I believe/speculate he had already ''got bored''... I strongly speculate he was a Narcissist... I have spoken in depth to a couple of close friends about this and they agree with me. It's sad when someone ''unsuitable'' gets into that field and does not ''control'' their disorder enough to ALWAYS be a ''healer'' or at least to DO NO HARM. It's beyond obvious, to me, that if a therapist is bored, triggered, ''indifferent'' or something similar by some of their clients they Should refer the client to another T. Unless they can work on THEIR stuff without spilling it out on the client in destructive and cruel ways I must have been very naive.

It is terribly unfortunate that so many therapists are highly dysfuntional people. I'm very sorry that that was your experience.

My parental units wanted to keep me ''naive'' (as a child and even an adolescent) so they could Control me... until it suited them to throw me out.

Oh, I understand that! All too well...

I'm glad the crappy admin wasn't just crappy to you!

Thank you. So am I. I will watch out for her from now on.

Big, soft hugs to you, Fuzzy dear.