Thanks, mountain. I had some counseling but it wasn't really helpful.
And it is hard for me when they leave me. I feel abandoned when they do.

I go to support groups on zoom and I don't feel comfortable but I still try to go and I mostly just listen.

I am just tired of myself from feeling blocked.

With my job, I just try to hold it together but it hurts to be talked down to. Keeping my job is important because I cannot cope not having no or little income. I have been through that before and it was rough...I would feel so worthless.