nothing comes to mind- at least a certain day

every day is just so painful and so useless and so frustrating, and so wasted...

I guess in the long run any day where I'm accepted or treated properly is a bonus- but you can't look forward to it because you never know when it's going to be.
at what age did you start to take life seriously?. started to think that, my future and my needs are down to me, not other people.