I had a rupture with current T and I thought for sure it would be the end of our relationship. I was at my most vulnerable point I'd been in years, I'd just quit my job and moved somewhere new, I was under attack from some people in my life and I had no idea who I was.

I didn't know what to do next, how I would carry on without his support even though I felt like he didn't care for me anymore. Everything stood in the way...my phone broke so I couldn't talk to him properly, the next session I had with him there was a massive car crash on the motorway so I almost didn't make it to see him, and thought about just giving up and going home. I think I really hated him and how careless he had been. But I didn't stop seeing him, and he did take many steps to try and repair our relationship after that.

Sometimes I feel like we are still repairing it, as the pain from the rupture never really goes away, and now I tread lightly, just in case.