Thank you for your replies.

LT - wow, yes, that does (to me, for what it's worth) sound like abandonment. How terrible to make you feel that "my love was poison" <= reading that really impacted me. Do you 'miss' him at all? What you had... or what you thought you had?

susannahsays - oh no, sorry to hear that. Reading your 'dear T' posts a little while ago, it seems your T has really dropped the ball with you and really let you down..

ScarletPimpernel - that sounds like a pretty solid relationship, which of course doesn't mean there might not be pain. Just that reading your post makes me feel that you guys can 'work it out' or at least, 'talk it out'... It does sound like a solid foundation..

dolphingirl - that is unacceptable behaviour from your T. It makes me angry reading how T terminated you. I hope you find a much better, and ethical one, dolphingirl

Lostislost - that sounds so painful Lostislost.. I can relate when you say "the rupture never really goes away"... Yes. For me, it is like a thorn or wound that still hurts whenever I breathe.