Welcome @Foolishheart

Im so sorry to hear youre struggling at the moment. That sounds like an awful situation to be in with unrequited love/feelings.

I agree with everything @CANDC said.

Therapy or some kind of support group sounds like a really good suggestion.

Is there anything in your area that youd be willing to try? There may be face to face or online versions.

I look forward to seeing you around the other forums.

Sending lots of hugs