I'm so sorry that this happened to you and that it has engendered the fears you mentioned. To be honest, I would feel the same way if I was in your shoes. Wish I knew what to say to help, but after thinking and rethinking your situation, I can't come up with any good ideas. Hopefully other people here on the Forums with more knowledge, insight and experience will see your post and respond to it with helpful ideas. I sure hope things eventually work themselves out for the best for you!