I really wish you hadn't put me in this position. I can't just disregard that you fundamentally misunderstand MDD. Honestly, I'm having a hard time understanding how you can be so ignorant given you've been a therapist for 35 years. There's no way I'm the first person you've harmed with your ignorance.

I also feel really maddened at the justifications you used for your beliefs. They don't hold up under scrutiny. Also you didn't even ask what I have accomplished in the last week. You just assumed I've done nothing. Then you took the examples of small things I'd done in the past and extrapolated it as if all my symptoms are because I choose not to take responsibility.

That's the expression that's really got me ****ed up. Take responsibility. You have no idea what I'm going through. You can't. I can no more "take responsibility" in the sense you suggest than I can stop my body from attacking itself due to an autoimmune disorder.

Context ****ing matters. You should know that. I'm doing my best to keep up with my responsibilities and it's exhausting. That's why it feels impossible to do more. Why don't you comprehend that??

I feel like maybe you're not just ignorant but stupid.

And idgaf that you "care." Who the **** are you to say that to me? What effect were you expecting? Is that supposed to make it better? Or do you think I will come to the conclusion that you must be in the right because you care?

I don't think you understand quite how much you've ****ed up.