Quote:
Originally Posted by Pinny
Ive had some time to reflect today and I still feel so embarrassed and so ashamed that I cant handle work. Im hoping my thoughts start to turn a bit more positive.
I increased my meds today. I havent waited for my psychiatrist to tell me, I know I should have but I know thats whats going to happen when I see her so I just preemptively did it.
Im hoping they work a little better, so far things have defo improved a bit on these meds, so hopefully an increased dose will help. However they did cause some insomnia for a week or so which Im not looking forward to.
|
Hi Pinny,
Sorry to hear that your meeting left you feeling bad about your bipolar depression. I think it's normal to feel embarrassed and ashamed when you choose to be vulnerable with another human being; because we can never predict the outcome that our vulnerability will have on us, or the person who receives it.
Wellbutrin is a wild horse as far as side effects. I read that it has suppressed your appetite. I think that's exactly why it's used as a weight loss drug. Maybe it's not the right medication for you after all? Are there others you could try instead? I can't suggest any b/c I am not a psychiatrist.
I think you did right to take some time off. Maybe you could reframe your embarrassment about your leave of absence to a more positive one; you are taking time to heal yourself so that when you go back to work, you'll be stable and feel great again.
Do you do anything as a hobby? You could use your time off work to indulge in a fun hobby or creative outlet to help your mind settle, too.