Just got home from my church program. When it was my time to speak I actually did not cry about my wife passing away but I also did not bring it up. I actually regret not talking about my wife but it is what it is and I have next week to talk about her. I found online that for the last 3 months I suffered from widow brain I mean I read the article and it described everything I was going through. I have never been so depressed in all my life