My relationship with my love has always been kinda rocky. Recently, in the last 3 years, I havn't been coping well with life, I guess. He bears the brunt of it all. Finally, I have decided to go "talk" to someone. I have only gone twice, waiting for my third apt on Wednesday. Meanwhile, I have completely lost my sex drive. This is causing major problems. In addition, I am so down and pathetic all the time, he is basically starved of love from me. I know this, I know I am causing our relationship strains. He is sooo good about dealing with my attitudes and tears. I just don't know what to do!! Last night we had a HUGE fight about it all. He has been dealing with these issues of mine that he is starting to bottle it all up. My problems are causing him problems! This kills me because I never want to be the source of pain for him. I love him with all my heart but I can't get intimate and I don't show love very well. I need help quick before I ruin all my relationships!!!