Hi guys, I've been living with depression for over 8 years now, and I want to do breast augmentation so badly.

I've been hating myself, my face, my body since elementary school. Because I currently have a rare disease on my face (fortunately minor) that makes my right side a lot smaller than the left, and it hurts to even put glasses on for long periods of time (my ears location are also asymmetrical).

I also have a hormonal imbalance which makes me very hairy as a woman, and I have big coarse wavy hair (living in Asia where most have super straight hair, I'm definitely 'different').

I also have a flat chest, and several times I got made fun of. A girl suddenly touched my chest and laughed, and my ex said how small they are to other people in a joking manner. Idk why, I should not be bothered by all this because honestly most people still think I'm pretty even with all that.

But it still ****in hurts.

It hurts because yes I still do have a hormonal imbalance and I have to shave like 3-4 times a week, full body (not only armpits), yes I do have an A cup which makes it hard for me to find bras that aren't for kids. It hurts to see myself in pictures, just because of how noticeable my face is for being asymmetrical. It hurts that people can feel so happy in rains while I feel so dreaded because my hair is ruined (i always do hair smoothing every 3 months, and still iron the roots after every showering). It hurts that even though my loving current bf said he's okay with my chest size, he still secretly watches and saves porn of girls with big boobs. --- talk about effort and expenses

My therapist once even told me, that my depression may also be caused by this 'hormonal imbalance'. I tried to do a healthy lifestyle, I do daily exercises, and I eat mindfully. yet nothing seems to change.


I don't really have any questions regarding this, I just want to finally be able to put my mind out for over 24 years thinking about it.

Damn, I'll work hard and do it -- plastic surgery.

Thanks for reading guys.

How u all doing? Do you also have 'controversial' confession you'd like to express?