I’m not sure how I feel about this either.
It’s sad but also… it’s a relief? Weirdly.

I’m really sorry that your childhood was bad though I hope things get better for you now

I feel very sad for some of the people I have lost. I still dream about them and sometimes forget they’re gone.
Honestly, I didn’t think I’d make it this far when I had my last bad relapse in 2016, I thought I wouldn’t live past that year.

I’m not really sure what to reply as I too feel like I don’t really know. Thanks for your thoughts @raging vortex
Sending hugs your way