Hi guys, I posted a few weeks ago for the first time. I’m going to try it again, but this time I hope to get some answers.
I’ve been hypomanic for about 3 weeks now. I started a new medication (mood stabilizer) a week ago today and I’m not sure if I feel any different yet.
Today, I have felt off. Even more off than the last 3 weeks. I still feel hyper, grandiose thinking, racing thoughts, and excessive spending. But I’ve also been SO sad today. I have had some crappy thoughts also… I’ve thought about how much better off everyone would be if I wasn’t here and such. But I know I would never do something to myself… What do I do? How do i stop thinking like this? I don’t like thinking like this; but I just have so much going on. I’m a full time teacher, full time college student, my mom and her family haven’t spoken to me in a month, I miss my dad and brother but can’t see them since they live with my mom, I just have no one and I’m just so scared because I don’t want to think this way. I have literally no one to talk to; the two people I trust and could talk to, would instantly panic and not listen to me when I say I’m NOT thinking about doing anything. But it’s just heavy on my mind.

Could this be the end of the hypomania? Could it be part of the hypomania with racing thoughts? I’m so confused