Every hobby/task I do or try, I feel like I can't immerse myself in anything. My cognition is destroyed.

I don't make sense when I talk to people either. My mind is the creation of not wanting to exist. Every day I struggle to try and fix what's wrong with me and so much time has gone by. The people who were supposed to be helping me were actually harming me severely and didn't actually care.

I'm dysphoric as **** and Idgaf what happens.