(((Fluffy)))

I really get you on the "thinking" dilemma. But it sounds as though you need some rest right now. Is there a way you can get some? Can you read a novel or watch a movie and nap? Sometimes I think we need to take action to disrupt the thinking for a while and let the unconscious work.

Do you need a new anti D? Maybe while T is away is a good time to go to see pdoc and feel cared for in another way?

Hang in there. I know you can.

xoxo