Right I have decides to keep taking my depot injection which I get next Thursday. But refusing the Depakote.

I was telling a friend and explained the reasons why I stopped and she's essentially said I need to rethink my actions or I will end up in the hospital.

I understand I'm ill to a point. But to me it's the lack of sleep it's currently 3:15am here I've skeot 3 hours and I'm wide awake! 10th night in a row I have had 3 or under hours. I don't think I have racing thoughts or anything. I feel good

I'm seeing my CPN today in under 12 hours. Unsure what I'm going to say to her. I've written a lost but I don't really want to admit to anything. I'm a little bit embarrassed.

I think there is a part of me starting to believe I have bipolar just cause the Psychiatrist hasn't said another diagnosis (btw I'm unsure what I have if it's not bipolar). But it's a very slim part of me. My head is stoll saying they are all lying.

I think cause I have insight into what's going on people don't take me seriously. But cause I know what I am doing is wrong yet still do it people think I'm a liability. When I'm not I just want to feel again.

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