I'm going to take a vacation. I'm going far, far away where nobody knows me. In fact, I will be the only person there! I will be a crowd of one. I will go there, sit by a tree, and overlook the peaceful lake under the sun. The ducks will be swimming, the frogs hopping, the birds singing. And I, will have nothing to do about anything. At night, I will pop a few dozen pills and and enjoy my night, the f'ed up parts of my life leaving my body, and I won't give a damn what it does to my body. Yes, that's relaxation.

I'm not really going away like this, not physically anyway. I sure wish to. Just a little fantasy.