I'm fear if I see a therapist they will hospitalize me. I'm having trouble remembering people don't know what I'm thinking. I'm quite and withdrawn. I really don't feel like trusting another therapist. Saying I'm not suicidal probably wasn't convincing. I'm not though. Pdoc wants eyes on me 1x a week. I don't know what to do. I can't just ignore him but sitting with a stranger who's whole point is to tell on you if they can't help doesn't sound like something I should do. I understand that I sound paranoid but few therapist have been able to help me. I don't feel like wasting their time. Yes, I feel sitting with me is a waste of their time. Talking is hard for me. I hardly talk to the people I see daily. I'm currently just a waste of space.