Pdoc said “take your PRNs and ride it out”. I get it, I do, but the PRNs are not helping even in the slightest. I can’t take the extra seroquel during the day, it makes me slur my words and makes it dangerous to drive. Xanax didn’t even touch it today. I rather frantically paced the gym today during class twisting my stress ball in my hands. One of the students told me I looked like I was freaking out. I just blamed it on my back which makes it impossible to sit on the stage without pain, which is true.

I used my stress ball incessantly which didn’t help but at least wasn’t as obvious as pacing the tiny room. I even held the ice pack I brought from home. When I got home I laid my support object on my chest and turned on rain sounds.

My head is telling me to do such bad things. It really is becoming appealing at this point. My pdoc said to call her if it doesn’t resolve by tomorrow. I’m still holding out hope, maybe one more night’s sleep will help. I don’t see what she could possibly do though. I think it would be worse to be off work or stuck IP. But I tell you this, if I didn’t HAVE to go to work tomorrow in order to get paid for the holiday I absolutely would not.