Tuesday night I didn't get to sleep until 6:30 AM and then I couldn't nap so I was very tired last night. I don't even known when I fell asleep. I know my reminder to do my Bible study when off at 11:30 and then that's it. My pdoc told me to start taking an extra 1/2 to 1 mg klonopin every day until I am through my surgery and calm down a bit. I didn't even get to time to take it.


I've ben really upset that my therapist would terminate me because we had a disagreement Monday. Not a big one but I still was left worried. In reality we moved on to something else and so I know it's fine but I also know he was pretty upset. Initially he didn't understand what I said and was really upset and then when I explained again it was like he couldn't totally let it go and I felt defensive. It was a mess. Then I cancelled my appointment for 2 days before my surgery because my pre-op overlaps my appointment. The receptionist was weird, demanding to know why I was cancelling. I felt like saying it was none of her business but I was so surprised I just answered. I've never been treated like that in 22 years at this center. I don't know why she was like that. I'm going with bad day but at first I felt like my therapist had shared his anger and she was reacting with angerr too. Not something that would really happen but hard to not feel weird about it.

Anyway after sleep I feel a lot less paranoid about that whole thing. I'll dealw ith it on Monday when I actually see my therapist. Until then I've got enough to worrry about with upcoming surgery. Minor surgery but still surgery. And at a different place than I've ever had surgery which is a big deal with my MAOI.

I hope I can sleep some more now. My meds haven't worn off and typing is hard. more sleep would be great.