I saw her yesterday. It was hard. I couldn’t tell her everything but I told her that I didn’t want to intrude on her life. She said that she never meant that I did. She said that she just wanted me to understand that if I didn’t quickly get an email back from her, I shouldn’t blame myself. That it could be because of something totally unrelated to me. I don’t know, it’s all blurry, I was crying the whole time and don’t even remember everything.

I might try to talk to her again next time, I don’t know. I’m just very tired right now. I feel like she’ll probably never understand how I feel about her. And perhaps she doesn’t have to.