Yes.. positively, life has been good. I have learned many things.

It will get better.

I just hate how I was so isolated - Then when I move to a national park, everything changed. I have good memories....

Things shouldn't be so black and white.

Yesterday I Googled like 50 questions, found articles.. About self awareness and such. With high self-awareness, people don't usually use drugs - They question the reason as to why they take something. Many just do it without giving a second thought.

It's difficult. Idk what to do with things.. I regret not getting to this point sooner. I just can't be sober constantly or else the awareness would present too many things at once and I wouldn't be able to handle that - So I have to ease myself into it.

Anyways, I fnished 3 days of work! - Now I get a break. I took an extra 30mg Vyvanse yesterday and spent 2 hours in bed just thinking and thinking. I think too much. I don't do things as much as I think. I love to think... I like the puzzle of my mind.