I almost don't want to see my pdoc in person. Basically I wanted to go to all the stores I frequented because of my transference T. But now I really don't have a desire to go to any of those places anymore. I kinda am hoping for bad weather so we have to cancel. But man do I not want to go through another painful expirence like that again. It took a ****ing year to make peace with things.

What if my current T knows its over because its now begun with her? Therapists play dumb very well but they know very well what is actually going on.