My mom is burning out from work - It's unbelievable the complexity of what she is doing and what she is keeping track of. She says that talking to my dad on the phone made her feel anxious because he's so arrogant etc.

She's always so positive and expressive - and wonders why people always put her down. She can't handle it anymore.

I told my dad that he should be nice to her.. But he says that he only cares about me - And that we have a broken family. He thinks that she's not stressed - Or caused it to herself etc.

All I'm doing lately is investing in myself. I have a good life to do that. If the drama happens once more, I will leave.

I just can't deal with so much awareness and pain all at once - I need to drug myself. But I've been doing that since my ex step dad was around - Just this time, I'm more responsible.

My mom is getting older and won't be able to attract people with her looks, will want a face lift and such. I'm just saying these things as they are.. Some of her personality is based on her looks because she has trauma and feels worthless.

I don't know what to say to people that feel that way - I feel like that sometimes and I ask for help about it. My dad says that I'm smart and can figure things out - But bad luck can happen.

My sister left.. All my mom has left is me. It will get bad. The world is getting bad too. I'm not sure if my mind is getting better or deteriorating further.