To all of you who are having a hard time right now--please keep on trying and keep on telling about your struggles. We provide support for each other even just revealing that there are other people having the same problems.

I'm doing pretty well, getting somewhat more sleep and keeping busy with my activity schedule. I've increased the mirtazapine, to 75% of my old dose from when the bipolar and insomnia were so well controlled, and later this week I'll be able to increase the lamotrigine and be at half of the old dose.
I would rather not have to take pills, but when I stop, after a while, my life becomes miserable. I'm thinking of trying DBT as well as the strict schedule, and then trying going medicineless again, but not for a long time. I think it's harder on the body to not sleep and to be in agony, than anything the pills are likely to do. And I am grateful that there is medicine that helps so much.

I was making notes about the people I wanted to reply to but there are so many! I probably won't reply to all that I'd like to, but some is better than none, so I'll go do a few. Maybe I'll get faster at it eventually and be able to do all that I'd like to.