I miss seeing you in person. A lot.

Felt like you were annoyed that I'm worried you're going to retire.

Hurting a lot. Spent hours and hours today looking at all the drugs I could buy on the dark web. I wish ketamine infusion wasn't so very expensive. I can't spend 3k on something when I don't know if it will even work. But then I'm also really worried that ketamine bought illegally will be cut with something else.

I'm just really desperate.