Sometimes we can't even communicate successfully about really basic aspects. It's frustrating and irritating. You really irritate me. I know I irritate you. Why are we like this? Maybe I was unconsciously obtuse about the arrangements because I don't really want to meet in person and am primarily doing so because I know you want to. Maybe you were pushing for me to say something else because you want control as much as I do. Or maybe we just struggle to get along. Either way, this culminates in me feeling very put off by the prospect of being in contact with you.