My check-in for today (Tuesday):

It wasn't as good a day and that may be because I took a day off from following my schedule so closely. I had more anxiety and old familiar worried thoughts, a lot like OCD thoughts, but they don't trouble me when my mood goes up, another reason to believe the bipolar diagnosis, which surprised me greatly when I first heard it. (I was called just depressed for about 10 years, and I thought it was mostly anxiety.) Anyway, when I'm in happier mode, the same things about the world that I was thinking about with dread are just part of the adventure.

But today... it was also dark and cloudy this morning. I'm quite sensitive to weather. And the whole day was discouraging; I was dropping things, like a bag of popcorn that spilled half of it on the floor, and a bowl of cookie dough that flipped over upside down on the floor, but only a little spilled out. And I got lost out driving and was of course annoyed with myself, but all this is little stuff. It was those thoughts, and/or the anxiety (I don't know which comes first), that had me thinking that I haven't really made much progress.

I'm okay now.

I'm following the schedule tomorrow.

I'm thinking about getting THE DIALECTICAL BEHAVIOR THERAPY SKILLS WORKBOOK on Kindle, the one with Matthew McKay as the first author listed. It's #1 in its category on Amazon and gives a good long free sample, and I like it so far--some helpful ideas and it doesn't seem to talk down to the reader too much.