I want to welcome you here. I think the SARS-Coronavirus-19 pandemic has had awful consequences on so many people and I am sorry that it has affected you and weighed you down with the burdens you mentioned. That is heartbreaking. Really heartbreaking.

These Forums have helped me a lot during the pandemic and I hope they will prove to be a blessing for you too. I used to work in a job similar to the one you describe and it weighed heavily on me. People who have not borne this weight cannot really understand how heavy it is. Sorry it is affecting your home life in a negative way. Wish I knew what to say that would help.