My therapist says I'm focused on too many things at one time and thats why my anxiety is spiraling out of control. She told me I need to just focus on the doctor and the blood work results first tommorow and she doesn't even want me to think about going back to work right now. We talked a lot about my anxiety about my doctors appointment tommorow and she was understanding today and didnt say anything that got me upset even when I mentioned work place harrasment. Basically I told her everything I was feeling and we worked it out. But she told me to utlisze my support system more because I asked for an extra session and she doesnt think I need to see her twice a week. I told her I had a lot of caffeine today because I had not been sleeping well since getting the news from my doctor on Monday and she could see me shaking. I'm glad she does not have acesss to my pdoc. But today went good and I feel good about my current therapy situation but I still feel anxious in general.

And today is the one year anniversary of my last session with my transfernence T and I honestly am not feeling anything about it and I did not mention it to my current therapist.