I can feel myself faltering in my decision and the pain is a bit much right now. I asked my therapist to see me on an emergency basis.

I was honest with her about the red flags and she said it was good I ran and not walked away. With the diagnosis and some of the behavior there are extremely deep issues, toxicity and dysfunctional things going on. She said had we met up in December as planned, it would have been a nightmare.

I do at least realize that I want a healthy relationship, so I’ve put my profile up on some dating websites and accepted a coffee date with an old boyfriend from high school. Although I’m sad and I hurt, I’m not letting grass grow. I’ll learn from this and move on.

Thank you for the kind words of support. They really comforted me a great deal.