I am so sorry you are in the difficult situation you describe. Can't even imagine what you must be going through. There are a lot of people on these Forums going through separations and divorces. I hope they will see your post and respond to it in a kindly and helpful way. Although I am single, I have found these Forums to be very helpful when I feel very isolated and alone. Hopefully you will find this site to be a place where you will meet many understanding and compassionate people, people who will encourage you and offer you consolation. Wish I knew what to say to help!